The Other Side of Me

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We had read the story of Otto's heroism in the newspapers and had heard it over and over on the radio, but we wanted to hear it from Otto. I had no idea what prison did to a man, but somehow I had the feeling that he would come home changed; pale and burdened down. I was in for a pleasant surprise.

When Otto walked through the front door of our apartment, he was grinning and cheerful. "I'm back," he said.

There were hugs all around. "We want to hear what happened."

Otto smiled. "I'll be happy to tell it again." He sat down at the kitchen table and he began. "I was working inside the grounds of the prison with the regular cleaning crew. About fifty feet away, there was a huge reservoir that supplied the prison's water. It was surrounded by a wall that was about ten feet high. I looked up and saw a little boy come out of a building. He was probably three or four years old. The work crew had finished and I was alone.

"When I looked up again, the boy was climbing the steps of the reservoir wall, and was almost at the top. It was dangerous. I looked around for his baby-sitter or nurse or someone, but there was no one. As I watched, the little boy reached the top. He slipped and fell down into the reservoir. A guard in the tower saw what had happened, but I knew that he could never get to the boy in time.

"I got up and ran like hell to the wall. I climbed it as fast as I could. When I got to the top, I looked down and I could see the boy going under. I jumped down, into the water, and managed to grab him. I was fighting to keep the two of us afloat.

"Then, help arrived and they pulled us out. They put me in the hospital for a couple of days because I had swallowed a lot of water and I had some bruises from the jump."

We were hanging on his every word.

"As luck had it, the boy was the warden's son. The warden and his wife came to visit me in the hospital to thank me." Otto looked up at us and smiled. "And that would have been the end of it except for one thing. They found out that I couldn't swim and that's when everything got crazy. Suddenly I was a hero. It was in the newspaper and on the radio. There were phone calls and letters and telegrams coming into the prison offering me jobs and asking for leniency for me. The warden and the governor had a meeting and they decided that since my offense wasn't too serious, that it might be good public relations to pardon me." Otto held out his arms. "And here I am."

We were a family again.

It might have been a coincidence, but suddenly a scholarship that I had applied for a year earlier from B'nai B'rith - a Jewish philanthropic organization - had been awarded to me.

It was like a miracle. I was going to be the first one in my family to go to college. A page had turned. I decided that maybe there might be a future for me somewhere after all. But even with the scholarship, we were desperately short of money.

Could I handle the checkroom job seven nights a week, Afremow's on Saturdays, and a full college schedule?

I would see.

Northwestern University is located in Evanston, Illinois, twelve miles north of Chicago. The university, a two-hundred-forty-acre campus on the shore of Lake Michigan, was spectacular. At nine o'clock on a Monday morning, I walked into the office of the registrar.

"I'm here to enter the university."

"Your name?"

"Sidney Schechtel."

The registrar picked up a heavy volume and looked through it. "Here we are. What courses would you like to take?"

"All of them."

She looked up at me. "What?"

"I mean as many as I'm allowed. While I'm here, I want to learn all I can."

"What are you mostly interested in?"

"Literature."

I watched her go through some pamphlets. She picked one up and handed it to me. "Here's a list of our courses."

I scanned the list. "This is great." I checked off the courses I wanted and then handed the list back to her.

She looked at it and said, "You're taking the maximum amount of courses?"

"That's right." I frowned. "But Latin isn't there. I really do want to take Latin."

She was looking at me. "Do you really think you can handle all this?"

I smiled. "No problem."

She wrote down "Latin."

From the registrar's office, I went to the cafeteria kitchen. "Can you use a busboy?"

"Always."

So I had another job, but it was not enough. I felt impelled to do more, as though I were making up for lost time. That afternoon, I went to the offices of the Daily Northwestern, the school newspaper.

"I'm Sidney Schechtel," I told the man behind the desk with a sign marked "Editor." "I'd like to work on the paper."

"Sorry," he said, "we're full up. Try us next year."

"Next year will be too late." I stood there thinking. "Do you have a show business section?"

"A show business section?"

"Yes. Celebrities are always coming to Chicago to do shows here. Don't you have someone to interview them for the paper?"

"No. We - "

"Do you know who's in town right now, dying to be interviewed? Katharine Hepburn!"

"We're not set up to - "

"And Clifton Webb."

"We've never had a - "

"Walter Pidgeon."

"I can talk to someone, but I'm afraid - "

"George M. Cohan."

He was getting interested. "Do you know these people?"

I did not hear the question. "There's no time to lose. When their shows close, they're leaving."

"All right. I'm going to take a chance on you, Schechtel."

He had no idea how excited I was. "That's the best decision you've ever made."

"We'll see. When can you start?"

"I've already started. You'll have the first interview in your next edition."

He looked at me in amazement. "Already? Who is it?"

"It's a surprise."

It was a surprise to me, too.

In what spare time I had, I interviewed many minor celebrities for the newspaper. My first interview was with Guy Kibbee, who was a minor character actor at the time. The major stars were too important to be interviewed for a school newspaper.

I was working in the checkroom and the drugstore, I was taking the maximum number of courses at school, plus Latin, I had a job as a busboy, and I was on staff at the Daily Northwestern. But it still wasn't enough. It's as though I were driven. I thought about what else I could do. Northwestern had a great winning football team, and there was no reason I couldn't be on it. I'm sure the Wildcats could use me.

The following morning, I went out to the football field where the team was practicing. Pug Rentner, who went on to a glorious career in the NFL, was the star of the team that year. I walked up to the coach, who was on the sidelines watching the action. "Can I talk to you for a minute?"

"What's on your mind?"

"I'd like to try out for the team."

He looked me over. "You would, huh? You've got a pretty good build. Where did you play?"

I didn't answer.

"High school? College?"

"No, sir."

"Grammar school?"

"No, sir."

He was staring at me. "You've never played football?"

"No, but I'm very quick and - "

"And you'd like to be on this team? Son, forget about it." And his attention went back to the scrimmage.

That was the end of my football aspirations.

The professors at Northwestern were wonderful and the classes were exciting. I was hungry to learn everything I could. The week after I started school, I passed a sign in the corridor that read: "Tryouts tonight. Northwestern Debating Team." I stopped and stared at it. I knew it was insane and yet I felt compelled to try out.

There is a maxim that death is the number two fear that people have and public speaking is the first. That was certainly so in my case. To me, there was nothing more terrifying than public speaking. But I was obsessed. I had to do everything. I had to keep turning the pages.

When I walked into the designated tryout room, it was filled with young men and women waiting their turn. I took a seat and listened. All the speakers sounded fantastic. They were articulate and spoke fluently, with great confidence.

Finally it was my turn. I got up and walked over to the microphone.

The man in charge said, "Your name?"

"Sidney Schechtel."

"Your subject?"

I had prepared for this. "Capitalism versus communism."

He nodded. "Go ahead."

I began to speak and I thought it was going very well. When I got halfway through my subject, I stopped. I was frozen. I had no idea what came next. There was a long, nervous pause. I mumbled something to end the speech and slunk out, cursing myself.

A student at the door said, "Aren't you a freshman?"

"That's right."

"Didn't anyone tell you?"

"Tell me what?"

"Freshmen aren't allowed on the debating team. You have to be an upperclassman."

Oh, good, I thought. Now I have an excuse for my failure.

The following morning the names of the winners were posted on the bulletin board. Out of curiosity, I took a look at it. One of the names was "Shekter." Someone with a name similar to mine had been chosen. At the bottom of the board was a notice that those who had been selected should report at three-thirty in the afternoon to the debate coach.

At four o'clock, I received a telephone call. "Shekter, what happened to you?"

I had no idea what he was talking about. "What? Nothing."

"Didn't you see the notice to report to the debate coach?"

Shekter. They had gotten my name wrong. "Yes, but I thought -  I'm a freshman."

"I know. We've decided to make an exception in your case. We're changing the rules."

So I became the first freshman ever to be accepted on the Northwestern Varsity Debating Team.

Another page had turned.

As busy as I forced myself to be, something was still missing. I had no idea what it was. Somehow I felt unfulfilled. I had a deep sense of anomie, a feeling of anxiety and isolation. On the campus, watching the hordes of students hurrying to and from their classes, I thought, They're all anonymous. When they die, no one will ever know that they lived on this earth. A wave of depression swept over me. I want people to know I've been here, I thought. I want people to know I've been here. I want to make a difference.

The next day my depression was worse. I felt that I was being smothered by heavy black clouds. Finally, in desperation, I made an appointment to see the college psychologist, to find out what was wrong with me.

On the way to see him, for no reason I started to feel so cheerful that I began to sing aloud. When I reached the entrance of the building where the psychologist was located, I stopped.

I don't need to see him, I thought. I'm happy. He'll think I'm crazy.

It was a bad decision. If I had gone to see him, I would have learned that day what I did not find out until many years later.

My depression returned and showed no signs of abating.

Money was getting tighter. Otto was having difficulty getting a job and Natalie was clerking in a department store six days a week. I worked every night in the checkroom and at Afremow's on Saturday afternoons, but even with what Otto and Natalie earned, it was not enough. By February of 1935, we were far behind on the rent.

One night, I heard Otto and Natalie talking. Natalie said, "I don't know what we're going to do. Everybody is beginning to press us. Maybe I can get a night job."

No, I thought. My mother was already working at a full-time job and came home and made dinner for us, and cleaned the apartment. I could not let her do more.

The next morning, I quit Northwestern.

When I told Natalie what I had done, she was horrified. "You can't quit college, Sidney." Her eyes were filled with tears. "We're going to be all right."

But I knew we were not going to be all right. I started looking for another job, but 1935 was the height of the Depression and there weren't any to be found. I tried advertising agencies, newspapers, and radio stations, but no one was hiring.

On my way to another interview at a radio station, I passed a large department store called Mandel Brothers. Inside, it looked busy. Half a dozen salesmen were servicing customers. I decided I had nothing to lose, and I walked in and looked around. I started walking through the store. It was enormous. I passed the ladies' shoe department and stopped. This would be an easy job.

A man came up to me. "Can I help you?"

"I'd like to see the manager."

"I'm Mr. Young, the manager. What can I do for you?"

"I'm looking for a job. Do you have any openings?"

He studied me a moment. "As a matter of fact, I do. Have you had experience selling ladies' shoes?"

"Oh, yes," I assured him.

"Where did you work before?"

I recalled a store where I had bought shoes. "Thom McCann, in Denver."

"Good. Come into the office." He handed me a form. "Fill this out."

When I had finished, he picked it up and looked at it. Then he looked at me.

"First of all, Mr. Schechtel, 'McCann' is not spelled 'M-I-C-K-A-N.' And secondly, it's not located at this address."

I needed this job desperately. "They must have moved," I said quickly, "and I'm a terrible speller. You see - "

"I hope you're a better salesman than you are a liar."

I nodded, depressed, and turned to leave. "Thanks, anyway."

"Wait a minute. I'm hiring you."

I looked at him, surprised. "You are? Why?"

"My boss thinks that only people with experience can sell ladies' shoes. I think anyone can learn to do it quickly. You're going to be an experiment."

"Thank you," I said, gratefully. "I won't let you down."

I went to work, filled with optimism.

Fifteen minutes later, I was fired.

What happened was that I had committed an unforgivable sin.

My first customer was a well-dressed lady who approached me in the shoe department.

"Can I help you?"

"I want a pair of black pumps, size 7B."

I gave her my best salesman smile. "No problem."

I went into the back room where shoes were stored on large racks. There were hundreds of boxes, all labeled on the outside - 5B . . . 6W . . . 6B . . . 7A . . . 8N . . . 8 . . . 9B . . . 9N. No 7B. I was getting desperate. There was an 8 Narrow. She'll never know the difference, I decided. I took the shoes out of the box and brought them to her.

"Here we are," I said.

I put them on her feet. She looked at them a moment.

"Is this a 7B?"

"Oh, yes, ma'am."

She studied me a moment. "You're sure?"

"Oh, yes."

"You're sure this is a 7B?"

"Positive."

"I want to see the manager."

That was the end of my career in the ladies' shoe department.

That afternoon, I was transferred to haberdashery.